✯ && envi. ✯

“You know what would make me happy…?” He said in a pretty dark tone and he came closer to her. “If I could find someone that is fine with me being awkward, stoic and clueless… This face…” He made a circle motion with his hand around his face. “This face just doesn’t smile much… I’m glad I did at least overcome something in my life and that was depression… Okay…? Before that period of my life I was very happy… I’m glad I didn’t kill myself… But don’t force me to be someone I don’t want to be… And I’m sure that’s not your intention… But it does come over as that…”

hersilia took a deep breath and listened to what he had to say. she had never expected that he would take what she was doing in a bad way, in fact, she did not even understand that she was trying to change him. the whole thought of doing that to him made her feel like such a disgrace. hersilia wasn’t that bad of a person deep down; but it made her feel so disgusted with herself. ❝ envi… i didn’t want to come across like that to you. i would never try to change you, i like you as you are. there’s nothing bad about being yourself and i do want you to smile. even if you never do! i don’t want you to think of me like i’m some evil girl who wants to change everything about you because i really don’t. and i’ll do whatever it takes to prove it because i think you’re an amazing person and i really am glad that i got to spend some time with you but if you don’t want to talk to me anymore then that’s fine. i understand that i’ve upset you && you have every right to hate me… ❞