✯ && envi. ✯

“And that’s all I want to hear, dear… Even though I’ve always wanted a girlfriend or a boyfriend… I lied about that I’ll find someone… With me being me… I’ll probably not have a romantic relationship soon… or even ever… My mind is too focused on things like work, my loyalty, killing and torturing, actually keeping friends… You know… Those kinds of things… I’ll probably die without a soulmate… And that’s fine… I just have to life live long enough… Until someone kills me before I kill them… That’s just how it works…”

❝ it was my fault and i’m sorry— i really am. ❞ hersilia responded, listening to him as he spoke. ❝ you really shouldn’t think that way, envi. there are so many people out there who would be really happy to have you as their significant other. you’re such a great person and i think that you deserve all the good things in life. compared to you, i’m despicable. i get everything i want and it’s like life was handed to me on a silver platter! i’ve tried to be better but i just have some kind of need to be the best at everything. it’s just time after time again i can only get worse. i want to be a better person but i don’t know if it’s even possible. if i could swap with you, i would. minus all the bad traits that i have. just so you would get all the nice things && so you could be happy every single day. envi, there is so much more to life, i promise you. i don’t want you to feel this way because i know it’s not real. ❞