He stared at her for a while and then hugged her. “I didn’t mean to get mad at you… Please understand… But also understand that I’m not me if I change all of the things that you summed up. This is my comfort zone… And I don’t want to get out of that… Not yet at least… I’m sure I’ll find someone… But I feel like that could take a while… I don’t want love to be forced upon me… Then it doesn’t feel real… You get what I’m saying…? It’s okay if you don’t… Don’t go now… I still have to learn a lot for you…” He smiled after he said that.
hersilia’s eyes widened in surprise when he hugged her. she took it gratefully and buried her face in his shoulder. ❝ i understand and i really didn’t mean to make you feel upset. you don’t have to change… ever. i don’t want you to. just stay the same and see where it takes you because i think you’ll find people a lot faster if you do that. i’m sorry for being really bad to you because i would never in a million years want to make you feel upset. it’s fine… i can’t teach you that well anyway. you’re better off just letting people like you naturally rather than doing what i’ve said. to be honest, now i feel like the way that i told you to act is the worst thing you could possibly be. just please stay the same. ❞
“You know what would make me happy…?” He said in a pretty dark tone and he came closer to her. “If I could find someone that is fine with me being awkward, stoic and clueless… This face…” He made a circle motion with his hand around his face. “This face just doesn’t smile much… I’m glad I did at least overcome something in my life and that was depression… Okay…? Before that period of my life I was very happy… I’m glad I didn’t kill myself… But don’t force me to be someone I don’t want to be… And I’m sure that’s not your intention… But it does come over as that…”
hersilia took a deep breath and listened to what he had to say. she had never expected that he would take what she was doing in a bad way, in fact, she did not even understand that she was trying to change him. the whole thought of doing that to him made her feel like such a disgrace. hersilia wasn’t that bad of a person deep down; but it made her feel so disgusted with herself. ❝ envi… i didn’t want to come across like that to you. i would never try to change you, i like you as you are. there’s nothing bad about being yourself and i do want you to smile. even if you never do! i don’t want you to think of me like i’m some evil girl who wants to change everything about you because i really don’t. and i’ll do whatever it takes to prove it because i think you’re an amazing person and i really am glad that i got to spend some time with you but if you don’t want to talk to me anymore then that’s fine. i understand that i’ve upset you && you have every right to hate me… ❞
He shrugged. “I don’t know why I didn’t get that look then… It was just kind of an immediate kiss… And then things started happening I guess…” He sighed again at her joke. “So… Then ‘teach’ me more… I suppose… I seem so clueless and I know I am…”
❝ it’s a bit weird but i won’t question it. i suppose different people do different things. stop being so stoic, envi! i need to see a smile coming from you because it’s important for you to not be so down in the dumps. plus, i don’t like seeing you sad. aaand there’s nothing wrong with being clueless! ❞ hersilia said optimistically, punching his arm playfully. ❝ don’t make them feel awkward && don’t feel awkward yourself. i understand that it’s hard not to be but you can overcome it. just be yourself and make sure that they’re comfortable. i can’t really say any more than that, really. i just want you to know that if it ever goes wrong it’s not the end of the world, there are other people out there. ❞
“Alright then… I’ve never got that look before… So don’t blame me… But now I know… So I’ll probably never make that mistake again…” He nodded. “I have to know a lot… Don’t I…?” He sighed. “This is going to be a long day…”
❝ yeah well it’s kind of weird that you haven’t. most people get it a lot! wait, hold on a sec… if you’re not a virgin then how would have not gotten the look? pretty much everyone gives each other that kind of stare when they’re about to do it. and there’s not actually a lot to learn, you just need to know the basics && then you’re all set! afterwards i’ll cry because you grew up so fast. ❞ hersilia laughed, looking up at him with an amused expression.
Envi narrowed his eyes. “You were… Testing me…? And I failed…? Great…” After that he changed and walked back in. “Uh… There’s a special ribbon for this outfit… If that interests you…” He opened up a drawer, picked up that ribbon and put his hair in a ponytail with it. He sat on his bed. “So… Talking… Go…” He motioned her to start talking.
❝ you need to learn a lot about this stuff if you wanna get laid! the only reason you failed was because you made it awkward by asking if there was something on your face. that look i gave you? it translates into ‘you’re hot and i want to take you to my bedroom.’ so whenever someone that you like does that to you and you know for certain, then go ahead and kiss them. don’t think about it just do it. because then they will think that you’re even hotter! ❞
“And when we get trashed we will do a lot of other cool stuff, this will be the coolest day of all~!” She was so motivated for do other stuff that wasn’t boring as heck.
❝ of course we will, lavin. i was just wondering if you would do it with me before we go because i need to get into the partying spirit. ❞ hersilia stated, smirking at her friend.
He took his clothes. “Thank you…” He stared straight back at her. “What…? Is there something on my face…?” He touched his own face. He started to get uncomfortable. “I’ll be going to the other room again…”
❝ yes, it’s fine… and no there is not something on your face. ❞ hersilia responded with a sigh, making her way over to the corner and sitting down in it. ❝ i was testing you && you failed miserably. you look so shaken up because i gave you the look. if someone does that to you it means they’re attracted to you. obviously i was just experimenting to see if you knew how to react and well… you don’t. so go change and then we’ll talk more! ❞
“Yeah! But sometimes would be cool if ya buy some drinks. Okeeey let’s go Hersi~!” She poked her cheek and held her hand. “Leeeeeet’s do this!”
❝ maybe it would but you’re richer than me && so it’s only expected of you to buy the drinks! ❞ hersilia rolled her eyes at her friend before interlocking their arms and moving forward.
He quickly took a shower. He looked around when he got out of the shower. “Damn it… I need clothes…” He wrapped the towel around his waist and got to his room, seeing her still rummaging in his box. He didn’t like this, his hair was undone and his tuft of fur on his chest exposed. “H-Hey… I need my clothes…” He said while blushing.
hersilia looked up at envi, frowning ever so slightly as she noticed his blush. it was a very attractive trait of his but she had no idea how to react to it. ❝ yeah, yeah! i’ll get you some. ❞ she said rather quickly, opening up his wardrobe and picking out the clothes that she felt looked the nicest. ❝ here. ❞ she whispered quietly, handing them over— yet hersilia could not help but stare straight at him.
